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Sep 27·edited Sep 28Liked by nadav

This is so gorgeous - I read it three times already. Indeed it's different from what you produced before and it's so beautiful as it is. I love so many sentences and turns of phrases that I could restack 90% of this piece but the internet would hate me. I love pieces that urge me to write and this one is one of them and I thank you for that. It's also so vulnerable that I just want to be invited in your brain to know what called you to write this one. Being neurodivergent is such a particular experience and it certainly brings a chaotic amount of questioning, especially on what is normal and what is not and who is entitled to decide all of this. I don't know if we will ever get these answers and I don't even know if we should try to get them.

(Also we also see Teslas sometimes here but it's very rare lmaooo.)

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i agree on the trying not to get them part, i think the truth may kill me. regardless thank you so much for your support and kind words, it means the world to me

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Thank you for sharing !!!

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dont worry nadav i just finished reading, and i relate so hard to your thought process

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<3

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i feel like you captured the so-called "neurodivergent" experience so well (although just saying that feels wrong because there are so many neurodivergent experiences out there) but the idea of a "perfect human system" and all the ways you describe the feeling is so good.

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There's a netflix docuseries on hypothetical alien worlds and one episode goes into a super-evolved humanity that are like uploaded consciousnesses all connected to a hive mind that is floating through space because they'd already destroyed earth. Supposedly that is the 'perfect' system because emotion/flaws are removed but if we were like that, we wouldn't have been able to read this piece so maybe not being perfect is good

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i don’t think my perfect system is one where emotions/flaws are removed, rather one where they are perfectly understood and can be avoided if needed. the perfect human system to me is one that fits in, i’ll check the netflix thing out for sure though

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apologies for the double 's' i tried to avoid

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if there's anything i love most in this world it's long streams of consciousness, especially when they're equally self aware, vulnerable and funny. you have sm personality and it is so personable i love it so so much.

also every other car in british suburbia (at least london suburbia) is a Tesla???? elon has his grip on us over here

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when i read the cracking knuckles thing i was like hehe relatable, little did i know this post was going to entirely mindfuck me and be deeply embedded into the trenches of my brain at the same time

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🧙‍♂️😸

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i think your writing will change my life

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knowing u already changed mine soni

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i love my fellow neurodivergents whose sentences are all completely coherent in their incoherence. i’ll never not fw ur work it’s so personal and also so relatable in some kinda offbeat, comedic way (maybe cuz i’m also super stream of consciousness talk and ponder and talk again coded)

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:)) thank you quinn

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Idk exactly how to explain it, but parts of this felt like being inside of my brain, I think mostly in the sense that it‘s a perfectly unbroken stream of consciousness.

Also the part about being the worst thing that ever happened to someone broke me a little bit.

I‘m pretty sure we got Teslas but I can’t drive and I never pay attention to cars, much less their brand names so they could be called anything and I wouldn‘t know.

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thank you for your kind words and comments :) i really enjoyed writing the stream of consciousness because it was in stream of consciousness

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